It's been a while since I last got online. The problem is getting worse with my comp. I think there's this virus taht's invading my comp. And it effected the whole windows system. Hate it when it happens!!! Anyway.. yesterday was a long hard day! You gotta be kidding me, if you said this thursday was a blast!! They gotta be a liar!!

I couldnt meat my PA, i gotta find parking space at campus for almost an hour!! Then Tessa called, and said that she saw Jedi with his gf at PIM. She told me that by phone, when I was sitting right next to Jedi in the car!! It sucks!!! FInally Jedi told me about it.. I started to cry, [man! you cant stand not to!!!] He keep on saying that I'm gonna leave him, that I hated him alot, and so on. Well, it reminds me of Adit.. and i hate it alot!!!

After this stupid cry war.. he drove me to the salon, and i was having a major headache so I get my self hair spa.. and well, i still have some back pains until now. This day is totally wierd. Not to forget that I sent the wrong sms to the wrong person. And he said that I once did that at Keu-Keun... Arrgghhh......!!!!!!!!

And now.. I really love to take retno to airport with the others, but it seems like no one is able to take me there.. nobody can even pick me up at Abbie's school. And I'm stranded here alone!!

But hey! I'll never forget the time when my friends got out of the car that moment, and started to encouraged me, hugging me and saying ... "Indira Dhian, things will be alright.. you gotta be tough with this. Coz you are born to be tough."

God bless my precious friends!!

i made this blog for Jedi, but it's viewable offline, coz i made it in frontpage. i must say i really love the way the page turns out. it's pretty clean, and neat. with only 1picture for each page. i guess, i just want it to be minimalist and not to over crowded. the plan is to give it to him this week. i know it's only contains several days, and nothing more. but just wanna give him something that i actually made it myself [well, parsially.. x(] i feel like wanna show him, that there are things that i actually can made it myself on the computer. despite my incapibility in photoshop :(

blogger is turning the layout as the way it pleases. one time it's new and the other time is back to one of those 2window thing. but who cares anyway.. my sister is keep on talking all the time i'm writing this. sometimes she talks about nothing really important to hear. but then again, maybe i'm just being to abnormally adult.. sheez..

wonder how's my cyber friends goin on with their lives...

talking bout wondering.. i wonder i could be a 'Wonder Woman'

I'm back online!! yeah!! yahoo.. it feels so good!and to start this blog after a long time... I just feel wanna write some lyrics..

i love this song a lot...

What's wrong with the world, mama
People livin' like they ain't got no mamas
I think the whole world addicted to the drama
Only attracted to things that'll bring you trauma
Overseas, yeah, we try to stop terrorism
But we still got terrorists here livin'
In the USA, the big CIA
The Bloods and The Crips and the KKK
But if you only have love for your own race
Then you only leave space to discriminate
And to discriminate only generates hate
And when you hate then you're bound to get irate, yeah
Badness is what you demonstrate
And that's exactly how a n**** works and operates
N**, you gotta have love just to set it straight
Take control of your mind and meditate
Let your soul gravitate to the love, y'all, y'all

People killin', people dyin'
Children hurt and you hear them cryin'
Can you practice what you preach
And would you turn the other cheek

Father, Father, Father help us
Send us some guidance from above
'Cause people got me, got me questionin'
Where is the love (Love)

Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love
The love, the love

It just ain't the same, always unchanged
New days are strange, is the world insane
If love and peace is so strong
Why are there pieces of love that don't belong
Nations droppin' bombs
Chemical gasses fillin' lungs of little ones
With the ongoin' sufferin' as the youth die young
So ask yourself is the lovin' really gone
So I could ask myself really what is goin' wrong
In this world that we livin' in people keep on givin'
in
Makin' wrong decisions, only visions of them dividends
Not respectin' each other, deny thy brother
A war is goin' on but the reason's undercover
The truth is kept secret, it's swept under the rug
If you never know truth then you never know love
Where's the love, y'all, come on (I don't know)
Where's the truth, y'all, come on (I don't know)
Where's the love, y'all

People killin', people dyin'
Children hurt and you hear them cryin'
Can you practice what you preach
And would you turn the other cheek

Father, Father, Father help us
Send us some guidance from above
'Cause people got me, got me questionin'
Where is the love (Love)

Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love
The love, the love

I feel the weight of the world on my shoulder
As I'm gettin' older, y'all, people gets colder
Most of us only care about money makin'
Selfishness got us followin' our own direction
Wrong information always shown by the media
Negative images is the main criteria
Infecting the young minds faster than bacteria
Kids act like what they see in the cinema
Yo', whatever happened to the values of humanity
Whatever happened to the fairness in equality
Instead in spreading love we spreading animosity
Lack of understanding, leading lives away from unity
That's the reason why sometimes I'm feelin' under
That's the reason why sometimes I'm feelin' down
There's no wonder why sometimes I'm feelin' under
Gotta keep my faith alive to lovers bound

People killin', people dyin'
Children hurt and you hear them cryin'
Can you practice what you preach
And would you turn the other cheek

Father, Father, Father help us
Send us some guidance from above
'Cause people got me, got me questionin'
Where is the love (Love)

Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)

Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)
['where is the love' // black eyed peas]

got it download from KAzza, but I cant upload it.. wonder if I can play it on winamp.. yeah,, yeah,, i know nothing bout technology.. :(

Sorry!! Long time no see!! Well, my internet connection wasn't able to go online so fast, due to my 'moving out' thing. so it seems like I wont be posting till it's back online. which is in about 9more days!!!

Retno picked me up last night at 9pm and we [ayu, nadia, esti, retno, satrio, jedi and me] went to Avalon. It's more like a club or lounge at Kemang Point. We get there on 12am and got out at 2am. I drank 2 glass of Long Island and half of Illusions. And so far, i didn't get drunk. Well, ok I might feel a lil dizzy but that's just becoz it's been a while since I have a 'drink'. It was a wonderful night that me and Jedi went through. And you know what!! Jack, worked at RyNet, the ocmpany which Jedi once worked!! Moreover, I cant believe every single word that he said that night. I still wonderin' if it's real and I'm not only dreaming... Yay... pinch me!!

Retro also sms and gave some calls to me. He told me to take care of myself and so on. In the morning ... Jedi sms. I still wonderin' if what he said was true.

...

Repro called again, we had a casual talk and nothing more. It seems like he's going cold for me. I mean, I think I've done sumn, that annoyes him. Dont think that he gonna call or sms me again ... :p

Today, I went out with retno, nadia, ayu, hanny, patricia, pitut, marisa & tya for a while. When Jedi finally picked me up at retno's house, I was so sick, but still gotta accompanied Pitut to PIM. On the way home, Jedi and I had so much fun. WE just laugh and did silly things. And I cant believe I love spending time just fooling around doing stupid things...

I just keep on falling for him. Even if my friends told me not to... There's something in him that I just cant resist.

This is what happened on Wednesday: Jedi went to Abbie's school and it turn out, he drove us home. After that, the three of us .. [yeah! that means me and abbie and Jedi] went to PIM to watch Nemo, but it was gone already. So instead of watching movie, we went to lunch at GM. It was our second legal 'hanging out' time. And I am so happy. Moreover afterwards he drove me to Annex as well.

I met his cousin Kiky. She looks so familiar. It was like I've seen her somewhere..

This is what happened on Thursday: Mom went crazy yelling at me, just becoz I misplaced my UI exam card. Jedi drove me to UI, and accompanied me there, then we both take a late lunch at Senayan.

Repro was there too, but didnt saw him, and I was not intend to see him anyway. But it seems like Jedi got a bit of worries in his mind abot me and Repro. Cant see

This is one of the most memorable day in my life. I dont wanna tell the stories in detail. I wanna keep it for myself.

Anyway, today I went to picked Retno at the Airport with Jedi. Then we went lunch with Arga, Patricia, Echa, TEssa, Hanny, Nadia. Then I go on with my own 'time'.

JW Marriott got bombed!! Stupid terrorist!! Idiot!! I cant believe its happening!!

Well, I went out with Repro today. Yups, that's gonna be his name from now on I guess. We watched 'Bringing the House Down'. It was a great movie. After that we just sit and talked at Daily Bread. I know that there's nothing special happening between us, but well ... I'm enjoying this day.

Jedi went up and down today. Finally understand why, and It frightened me a lil. I dont know, I just felt so close to him. That I'll do anything just for not seeing him got hurt. I thought he was happy when he can finally met her gf, but why does he acted like this to me. That's the one thing that I cant understand.

Anyhoo, when I got home, I sms Repro to say thanks. And that I had a great day. Cant believe his reply. He said that he felt the same way. And was hoping that we can go out again next time. Umm... it sounds more than what I said. But from our convo, seems like he's not ready for any relationship yet, so i'll just keep his word on that one.

Jedi said that he missed me today. That he really wanna see me, and he will accompany me to pick up Retno with the gank if I want too...
That was so nice of him, I cant believe my ears...

Thank You Lord, for Your wonderful grace today. Let me always remember that it's all becoz of Your Grace and nothing more.

JEDI IS FINALLY HOME!!! He gave me a call right after he got home. But I got so speechless, I dont really know what I must said. BUt oh dear!! Cant believe that he's here !!!



"REUNITED ONCE AGAIN"

I just cant understand this ... I promised to call Jedi tonight, and well, I cant. I got back from Church really late coz I went home with Dick and Tessy. After that I took a shower, took my sister to bed and read her the bible. Then I have to clean up my room. That's when Risa sms and asked me to give her info bout psychology books. So I got to send some emails to her. Then Dimas called, he asked me bout his probs with Aski. That's when I tried to sms Jedi. But tHen It seems like he got angry or depressed, that he said he was going out and wanna get drunk somewhere..

I dont know what to do...

Why did he do that??

You wont believe this!!!!!!!!

Repro just asked me out! Oh my dear!!
So here's the story: I was just thinking whether I should sms him today. But I thought ... 'nah!! dont! just take it all easy, ndy!' But about 6pm he called me to my cell phone. But I didnt answer it, so I sms him and asked what's up. But then, he called back again. I didnt answered it again [silly phone game]. So I send him the same sms, I told him that I cant answered the phone [ silly sms game]. He reply and just asked me where I am. Then I just asked him if he's taking short semester.. coz if he's taking it, then he gotta go to campus on monday. But he said no, and in return asked me back where I'm going on Monday. When I said I havent got any plans, he said that words ... "Pergi YUk!!

Yaiks!!! So I said 'yeah, sure!'. Coz I thought, 'it's only Repro kok ndy!' Phew... so we decide that we gonna watch a movie, and have lunch together. That's all!!

So I guess, I wont make a big thing out of it! We're just gonna have lunch, and that's all ...

ONLY LUNCH!!!!!


Btw, I love this picture..



chat with Kir today. Missed talking to her a lot. She showed me pictures of her and her friends at Kuala Lumpur. We talked about life and all. And she said this nice phrase to me: "take things easy n sail ur way thru smoothly". Well, I know it seems short and not meaningful. But when you know what it feels like to always regret things.. you might wanna catch up and understand its meanings..

Yesterday I shared about partnerships to my fellow Christian at Church. I guess what I shared was a lil too hard for them to understand in one night. SO I just prayed that they'll get the revelation, and the real knowledge from it.

Btw, yesterday I went to Dick's House and I remembered that the house next door was Aldi's relatives' house. So I gave him a msg about it. Well, it reaches the wrong person ... it reaches Jedi!! HAhahah.. Just because they got almost the same name.. oops, it's purely my mistake.

But, the thing is, we kept on sms-ing each other. Until on this point of time around 9pm, he called to my cell phone. We talked everyday things ... and it was quite fun. At least, I got someone to talk to, while most of my friends at that time was busy argumenting. Well, it was fun. That's all.

Today ... is a new day! Praise God. Gonna be a singer this evening on Revival Worship Service, with Elisa. And mom is going to this prayer meeting at Landmark. So I guess, today we both gonna get showered by God's presence. It's been a while since mom goes to church meetings on Saturday.

I usually goes on Saturday, coz lately nobody asked me out! gg ... Stupid reasons... But listen! I'm not that desperate